哈拉一下

今天班上其中一位朋友问了我是否有兴趣参加“友谊花开”的赠文比赛，看了看主题——《敢梦·敢想》，都是平时小弟拿手的主题，所以就悻然答应了；其实能不能找到灵感来写和是否可以写出好文章都还不成定局呐~~~（歹势，谁叫自己接了~~~）

我通常都不怎么会对增文比赛有兴趣（除了奖金XD），因为自认小弟功夫不到家；连阿莊老师都谦虚了，我怎么能嚣张？？

不过，既然答应了，也只好拼了。所以，就翻开自己旧的文章来找灵感。

灵感没找到，却看到让我意想不到的事情。我完完全全没想过自己可以写出以下的话语呐！

文章连接：《人生》。（建议没看文章的先看过文章才看下面的留言。）

留言：

::: 月圓月缺 ::: said...
人生如果什麽都達不到至少要讓自己開心
January 30, 2008 12:47 AM

Kanasai said...
知道自己喜欢什么？有目标，人生才踏实。
January 30, 2008 12:58 AM

SeoNz said...
Umm..找到我要爱的人？我看已经找到了。他们就在我身旁。朋友和家人，是他们了。对我无私的付出和关怀。此外，向你们所说的，知道自己喜欢什么，人生才開心，才踏实。所谓的爱情，老实说只是多余的，让人感到痛苦，伤心而已。No offence man..juz my opinion for nw..so tired to type chinese lah..anyway...juz wanna say family and friends are d most important thing for our life...u guys rocks man!!!! <3
January 30, 2008 1:32 AM

Tenze said...
子源:
孟子对齐宣王说过：“独乐乐不如众乐乐。”
自己能够快乐固然是好事，但若能把这份“快乐”感染给周围的人们，世界将会更为温馨。
人生如果什麽都達不到，起码有一样是每人每天都做得到：对旁边的路人给予最真挚的微笑。

Sai：
那么人生目标，你又找到了吗？
是眼前的一切，还是未来的期许？
目标与否，在乎的是自己。
人可以没有目标的活下去，只要问心无愧，
再加给予身边的人最佳的安慰，不也是踏实吗？

贤：
爱，在乎的定义，因人而异。
受了伤的伤口，痊愈的时间并没有根据。
有着疤痕的心，接受的与别人不同。
家人和朋友的确是受伤时最佳的良伴，可他们不可能陪你走一辈子。
虽然如此，至少有个笨蛋会陪你走一辈子，猜猜是谁吧……
至于爱情，受过伤的人，切实是不想再受伤害。
转个角度想，也许有人爱着你。
人生的事情，往往并不是和哲学所想的一样。
因为地球是360度。
至于伤心不伤心，痛苦不痛苦，也因人而异。
因为有一个人，不求回报的爱着另一个人。
他的爱，是多余的吗？
对他爱的那个人来说，也许是。
但对他自己来说，那是他活下去的动力。
January 30, 2008 4:30 PM

teenie said...
你是唯一一个我遇到对人生充满希望的人。我最近总是遇到一堆快得忧郁症的人 = =
January 31, 2008 1:07 PM

Tenze said...
Teenie:是吗？谢谢你的夸奖了。
就像我所说的，我找到了我要爱的人。
人生才会充满希望，而我才会努力活下去。
你遇到什么人是天天忧郁的啊？？？
P/S：我也不会读谱……>.<
January 31, 2008 2:35 PM

teenie said...
就是一些對生活失去希望，認為所有人都在壓迫著他，連跟他說句話都想這人是不是要陷害他，還是隨時身邊有人舉起槍射向他腦門（←這句亂講的XDD 全誤） 還有一些壓抑著自己的情緒，想哭又不敢哭，硬要裝著自己很堅強，死不低頭的那種人。

因為不想成全別人而委屈自己，放棄一直努力的事，認為這才是他一直追尋的解脫噼里啪啦噼里啪啦的人~~~ 再這樣下去得憂郁征的人恐怕是我咧（←這是絕對不可能的#）

啊順帶一提，我換回http://teenie.blog108.fc2.com/ 素密碼些（？），以前的登陸不到，只好會老地方。
January 31, 2008 4:32 PM

SeoNz said...
最痴情的男人像海洋,爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样,卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航,到你觉得我给不了的天堂
温柔的男人像海洋,爱在关键时隐藏而心酸
汇集都敞开胸膛,做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙,我的爱是折下自己的翅膀,
送给你飞翔...
erm..i think tat the feel tat i wan to reply ur sentence..
至于伤心不伤心，痛苦不痛苦，也因人而异。
因为有一个人，不求回报的爱着另一个人。
他的爱，是多余的吗？
对他爱的那个人来说，也许是。
但对他自己来说，那是他活下去的动力。
February 1, 2008 1:45 AM

Tenze said...
Teenie:那希望你那为朋友能了解身旁的人，不一定是想陷害他的人。
贤：这首歌是周传雄的“男人海洋”。歌词切实是很贴切，至少对于我来说。
February 1, 2008 10:25 AM

SeoNz said...
或许这就是你我对爱情的看法吧，不后悔去爱一个人，只后悔对他所做的一切错误。
February 1, 2008 11:37 AM

Tenze said...
贤：后悔不后悔，也已成定局。能够做的，也许是为了那个人，努力活下去。可能。我们就是一样的人。
February 1, 2008 12:01 PM

yog said...
请恕小弟头脑简单. 说真的,我从没用那样的角度想过人生..
可能是我经历的不多吧,或者换句话说 我过着"无忧无虑"的生活吧~
就是你们所谓的幸福的小孩,温室里的玫瑰之类的.
在我认为,做人就应该简简单单,像天真烂漫的小小孩,没有烦恼的日子,多么棒~
也就因为他知得少,须烦恼的相对的也不多,真幸福!
不过 这只是我理想中的人生,毕竟现实生活里,要做到"看破红尘",修养应该要很高吧,近乎不可能.

我常常在想,难道非得要把一件芝蔴绿豆的小事放大成国家大事来看待吗?(不是在说你XD)
难道一定要活在猜忌当中吗?难道就不能单纯一点地过生活吗?
其实我也不知我自己在说什么 XD 反正活得简单快乐不就好了吗?
(以上这一段纯属个人发泄 请勿理会XD)

说真的,我对人生并没太深入的理解,也许是我入世未深?
也许..我在逃避人生?
我只觉得人人都一样,空手来到这世上,最终也空手离开这世界,
只不过在做人的过程中有着差异,这就是同人不同命吧~哎~越说越乱
都把自己搞糊涂了 看来我真的不适合去思考人生吧

总之我认为 凡事都有解答 关键在于一个人怎么去处理
让自己活得合自己心意Simplement moi~

P/S:说得模糊的地方,敬请批评指正,因为我就是这副德性: 不善于表达 XD
February 1, 2008 9:25 PM

Tenze said...
少爷：
化学高手的头脑还会头脑简单吗？
也许你的头脑有H2O没有哲学吧？
不过，不可能。
因为能够这样回答我就是有想过这些属于哲学的问题了吧？

一个人的经历，切实是会影响思考人生的关键问题。
你虽然是少爷，但我看过比你还要温室的品种~~~

就像你所说的，要看破红尘，根本不太可能。
除非你永远是个婴儿，但根本不可能。
因为人会成长。
也就是说，不管你是个有钱到天天鲍参翅肚，还是穷到路边乞讨，你都要面对。
因为这就是人生。

至于把芝蔴绿豆事化做大题一件，我不知怎么和你说，但我知你懂。
打个比方，本来不懂空虚感的你，在“星光”过后，不也了解了吗？
看节目，是简单的事。
没的追下去的时候，顿时觉得失去了目标，整个人了解了空虚。
整个东西，不也是来自节目这么简单的事情吗？

活在猜忌当中，也不过是个人的防御墙。
因为那个人，受过别人不了解的伤害、背叛或者痛击。
你不能怪那个人，反而要去解开那个人的恐惧和猜疑。
很简单，只要微笑。
那是一个人认识另一个人的第一印象。
笑一下，反正你又不会吃亏什么。

你并不是对人生没有深入了解，
只不过是还没有发生某些事情来刺激我们所谈到的东西。
我们了解的“人生”，可能你不懂。
你了解的“人生”，可能我们不懂。
例子？失去父亲的痛，只有你和一样命运的人了解。
我不了解，因为我没经历过。（对不起，提到你的父亲）

“空手来到这世上,最终也空手离开这世界。”
理论上来说，这是对的。
但别忘了，人是感情动物。
如果有一天，你比我早走，物理上你切实是只占有一片土地，
但精神上，我的心还会有你的存在。
不只我，所有认识你的人，朋友，爱人，家人，亲戚等等都被你所占领。
这么说的话，你，是空手离开的吗？

人生过程中，有着不一样的起伏。
你起，我落。
我伏，你升。
这是世界的规律。
也就因为这样，每一个人的人生，就是一套最好的影片。
凡事都有解答，这切实是对。
但，没有了一定的姻缘，即使答案在你前面，你也不知道。

我的人生，我自己走。
你的人生，你自己走。
他的人生，他自己走。
只不过，每一个的人生路线，往往会因为缘分，
而互相交叠，碰在一起。
在那交叉点上，我你他都是互相的过客。至于是怎么样的过客，全由自己了。
天真烂漫的日子，每个人都想过。但往往，事与愿违。
P/S：如果伤害到你，不好意思并请联络我来痛骂我。
February 2, 2008 12:48 AM

yog said...
说真的 好为你感到骄傲哦~
"小小"年纪就能对这些世事如此的透彻
佩服佩服LOL~

唉呀 没什么啦~早就看开了
没人是长生不死的吧
人死也只不过在于迟早的问题罢了
就当作我爸在另一个国度继续他在那边的生活嘛 XD
不过还是会偶尔想念他吧
想念只有那短短十一年和他的回忆
看到别人的爸爸时也偶尔会有所感触
没事啦~XD
突然想起阿莊讲过:"穷有穷开心,富有富伤心,家家有本难念的经"..
开心就好~hoho~
对于你说的那个微笑 可能我对那个人已心存戒蒂了吧
所以会对那个人有着这样的想法
我试过去化解我心中的疙瘩 是有成功过就那么一下下
但之后又打回原形了是我修养不够吧 XD
Anyway,船到桥头自然直,这是懒人我一向来秉持的态度,开心就好~XD
February 2, 2008 10:46 PM

Tenze said...
少爷:那你父亲一定是在另一个国度祝福着你每一天的日子.至于那个人,既然你也已经试过了,那也不用再烦恼了.因为你已经尝试.祝你开心.
February 3, 2008 12:58 PM

::: 月圓月缺 ::: said...
朋友~新年快樂要快樂哦！ ^^送你一個過濾器過濾不開心的事
February 4, 2008 12:27 AM

Renge said...
我呢，说实在的，我没去想过什么是“人生”。根据在我的字典里“人生”的解释就是:人生就像一锅一锅的汤，不同口味的汤，需要用不同的材料，不同的材料需要不同的方式得到。在这过程中，会有喜怒哀乐，但这并不重要，最重要的是你是以怎样的心情来烹调这锅汤。最后出来的成品，或许不是你的期望，但至少你没有失去。
February 4, 2008 8:23 PM

Maxea said...
歹势....最近常常出街没时间玩电脑没看到你的文章..我只想说:-你的留言太多字看到小姐我眼花缭乱>.<-附带歌词的留言很新鲜呐~~哈哈!!-对人生的观念是, 放开过去面对未来, 有时间就尽量去happy, 对本人来说家人排第一，朋友排第二，感情排第三，事业排第四，金钱排第五。（虽然你们影像中的我爱钱爱到死去活来(夸张)，但是本小姐是看情况的~~）屁放完了。。。还有最后一声……*prat~~putt~~*
February 16, 2008 9:08 PM

小少 said...
写太多啦~~><不是很明白你在写什么~==不过啊~我的人生就是找出我为什么存在，而我的答案是，在死前都要过得开开心心!!>.^
February 17, 2008 2:21 PM


说真的，我写这些的时候竟然只有18岁？！
汗颜~~

P/S：请留意我的留言（Tenze）<--曾经用过的笔名，现在都还有用，只是嫌少用在知道我的名字的部落格。也请留意Yog的留言。

The International - A Point of Intersectin of Humanity's Corruption -

Well, last Saturday, as a result of my napping, can't really fasl asleep even at 0100... so i decided to watch a movie that i just download, The International.
(ok, i know i'm a jerk for not watching it at cinema, but i don't remember that Malaysia has showed this movie eh?)

Well, the movie was around an Interpol agent Louis Salinger(by Clive Owen) and MADA Eleanor Whitman(Naomi Watts) who these two fellows have to find out about a bank, IBBC - International Bank of Bussiness and Credits - which recently show active dealing of high destructive weapons with someone who Louis and Elanor donno.

So, the story was good, i must say, letting you have a feeling of wanna-know-more. Uncovering the secrets of the bank jusst lead these two persons getting nearer to Hell Gate. Assasination, Vehicle Ramping, Authority Power and many other more.

This movie is just like a concentrated piece of all the negative things that you can heard in a life. Supervisors exploit thier authority. Money as the Demon behind all the Charity. Uproar of War is just another way of improving economy of a country...etc etc

The way the director presents the ideas were just so breathless. It was so natural when the characters said the factual concept which you find yourself can't debate on it. For example, the following dialog:

"I was once destined to become a man much like yourself, true-hearted, determined, full of purpose, but, character is easier kept than recovered." by Wilhem Wexler, working as one of the consultant of IBBC.



"We cannot control the things life does to us, they are done before you know it, and once they are done, they make you do other things until at last, everything comes between you and the man you wanted to be." by Wilhem Wexler.



"We all have choices in life. You made yours. Sometime a man can meet his destiny on the road he took to avoid it." By Agent Lousis Salinger.

These few are the one that really hit my head when watching the movie, it was so true... So, if you want a sophisticated physiological theory, go ahead and watch this movie. Oh, here's another one:

"No. This is not about making profit from weapon sales. Its about control. (control the flow of weapon, control the conflict?) No. No no. The IBBC is a bank. Thier objective isn't to control the conflict, it's to control the debt the conflict produces. You see, the real value of a conflict, the true value, is in the debt that it creates. You control the debt. you control everything. You find this very upsetting, yes? This is a very essence of banking industry, to make us all, whether we are nations or individuals slaves to debts."

I found this undoutbly true, that is what's all about money and banking, isn't it? So, all those armies out there and those going-to-be politicians or leaders, think about this, is war made more money or loss more money?

I Have Enough

There days ago, Thursday, the doomsday; the day we had our Maths Paper 2 back.
Well, as i mentioned before, i did bad in that paper, didnt have any exact solutions, so not really expecting something special or something different.
But still, that day, created something irritating to me...
and all these, thanks to that teacher....

Seriously, i never did good in my maths papers,
i failed a lot back in my high school,
i made my maths teachers have to say only, good luck...

i scored somewhat around 50 for my maths paper 1, seriously i really appreciated it, because i never scored that high... be it in my high school or in this pre-u...

But the teacher snapped back that that 50 something isnt any good result...
oh please, if i can have this mark in my high school, i will be laughing non-stop already....

I got 17 for my paper 2, and well, kind of expecting numbers like this... around 10 to 20....
But the teacher said i am getting worse in my academic..
failing her papers ever since the beginning of 2009...

and there're many words, which were harsh and irritating, that she said to me...
"you should be..."
"you are not..."
"you are dissapoingting for..."
"i can't believe you..."
Just don't feel like typing it out....

But i have to say, stop acting like you know me....
You donno the real me....
i nver pass my maths,
i dont like maths,
and i have tried my best...

but what i got is something like this,
deny,
dissapointment,
angry,
and more negative feelings...

i really have to say, stop acting like you know me...
you donno anything about me than stop saying,
"i know you can do good than this"

Start of School, Start of Nightmare

15 June 2009, the day that was the school reopeining.
I hate school this year, if you guys followed up my previous posts, you guys know why.
I just couldn't help to stop thinking that year 2009 ends in a blink.
Yea, you got me, in a blink.

The school reopen day was the day most of the subjecs teacher gave back our papers ; and obviously, i forgot about academic that i totally forgot i haven't taken back my papers.

I was nervous, of course, because the first paper that i assumed would take back is Biology.
Refer to one of the post down there, you know why i scared bout it, because i never really studied about it.

Before facing Death God, i got my Maths Paper 1 instead. Well, of course i passed this paper because the questions were easy that made me thought it wasn't for STPM level. Anyway, still donno why the Matrix part sucked up that almost whole question got deducted mark, but other parts saved me so i accounted for 52/90. Not bad actually, seeing i never passed my maths papers back in TTSS, this 52 is good enough. But i fear the Paper 2, which i didnt get any solution at all in that whole paper, going to fail.

So, when the lesson started, of course was Bio, i was so not confident that i said to my friend when she gave me the paper, "i failed rite?" Who knew that she woul say, "no you pass, and you are good!" Kinda blurred with what she said so i opened up my paper i was so breathless at that moment, 62! I mean, how could i get such a high mark where i not even do any real study! And i thought my Ppaer 1 was going to fail yet i turned out i got 25/50 which was still passed! Unbelieveable! Guess switched back to Biology was a wise decision after all. By the way, i just simply wrote whatever in the paper, and it turned out quite well, thanks to my memory i guess, sleep quite good before the Bio papers.

Next one fo course was Chemistry. Serioulsy, i am disappointed with what i got, i expected something better than this! I have put so much effort into it that i could! But it still turned out that i'm no mathc for the others! These "others" means those really good and smark kids. Like, the gun? So, i got paper 1 33/50 which was so good, for me of course, cuz i expected this paper was worse than Paper 2 because most of the questions there i just blindly done. However, things went upside down as my Paper 2 turned out worse than Paper 1, 40 out of 100.. HELLO?! Just pass?! I can't imagine that after all these i just safely landed in the fly way!!! Gosh, can't believe it! But i have to admit, i bit all those once better than me students down, only four passed by the way, and i'm one of them, excluding those who got extra marks when doing correction.

P.A. as always, a language paper, so won't be a big trouble for me, pass... average mark is 66.58, not bad :P

well, havent got my paper 2 yet, tomorrow will be it, not really looking for it because if i really fail that paper, i fail the whole cert and i won't be at the top list anymore, gosh, can't really believe it... T.T

The O.C. - a mirror casting my life -

well, actually, i read these series back in my Senior 1 which was at 2006? hmm, well apparently, my memories in this book just stopped at the book 1 which is mainly concerned about the main male actor, Ryan Atwood, and some more memorable scenes in the laters.

So, yesterday, as i was so bored enough, get feeling of "i'm done" from playing online games, and a has a feeling of, is there any movies i can watch now? well, seriously, i was looking for something like comedy and dramatic, but not action and adventures. Before this i can pretty sure to tell you that i just love action movies like National Treasure, Dan Brown's series, Harry Potter, Narnia Series, X-men series, etc... But maybe i stuffed myself into too much of these types of movies that i eventually fed up with'em. So, my taste, right now, changes to comedy and dramatic movie or drama. So movie clips in my laptop like Forbidden Kingdom, X File, Bolt, and bla bla bla eventually get froze inside one of the folders. And hence, movie clips like Made of Honour really kicked in but i watched it like months ago.

So, anyway, back to the topic, i started to find some movies or dramas, to ease and soothe my boredom... I did find something in realplayer, a movie called Partners. ah ah, not going to tell you guys what was this all about, just find out yourself. So i tried to find some vids in youtube.com but failed.

Instead of wasting my time searching for it, i started look for something else, and The O.C. just came in ym mind, and i spent my whole morning watching episode 1 to episode 4 and i just done the episode 5.

Well, this drama been in my wishlist for a long time and i just can't find some money to get it into my backpack. Okay, maybe its just an excuse cuz i suddenly remembered that i could buy a RM250 Nike Jacket and i couldn't buy the series? No way, i was just jerk and stupid. BUt anyway, am going to buy it in the upcoming january of 2010, oh god, its still a long time what? BUt no can do, Speedy sells it at around Rm250 ~ Rm300 for one season, its not even full! And its at season 4 already! god, i really hate to say this but, whoever considering my birthday present, think about The O.C. ^^v

So, what so special about this drama that i will to spend my moeny on it?

Its because of the main male character, Ryan Atwood ( featured by Benjamin McKenzie). So, this fella, seriously, was just an image of my life. Disappointment, Sadness, etc, those all sort kinds of negative feeling that you can think of. Ryan said his life has no hope iont he beginning, and that's just the same for me back then, when i was just so weak that i didn't really know how to deal with the situation that apparently been dragging on until now. Even until now, so much that i done and have been done seem so useless and small, like i even not know how to deal with these anymore.

Something bad really happening around me now, and its not going to make anyone happy if this things left untouched. But how am i going to touch it?! With no guidance, with no advices, with no helps, only stress, only forces, only pushing that were happening on me now. I am made to be the one that hold the last key, to deal with this situation, but i really don't know how to raise my voice on it! Its just so sucks! Mom and I have been dealing with this for twodays and both days just ended up with quarrels and argues and bad emotions.

Stomachace kicked in and my back part started its "period" again which get even worse when i'm in stressful condition and my stomach just don't feel so good for the entire week. How am i going to start this? argh, i really don't know how to do and what to do.

Well, maybe you guys can say that i'm escaping. Yea, i can pretty sure to admit it that i am just pretending to be strong and just a corrupted soul inside my heart! Ryan Atwood in The O.C. is just letting me to express myself, and i can't seem to find any better ways.

People been telling me that no matter what happened or going to happen, he is still my dad. And hell yea, you guys think i don't know that? How much that i felt @#$%^& (dono what's the right word or maybe "Not in place" ) when i saw those kids hanging round with their dads? They laughed together, they made fun of each other and they spent thier time together? I want it all. But life won't wait for me to look at this dreams at the moment, i have to go on. And to go on, i have to be tough, strong enough to hold on every kind of stitauions, just to protect my mom and my little brother that just innocent enough to be borned in this falling apart family.

People been telling me that my dad is trying to payback to me, saying things like :"oh, my second son lives such a hard life before" and things like that. And hell yea!!! These just thanks to him! I had been spending up my whole school holiday selling popcorns to those spoil brats in cinema during my high schools, i had been trying to get through the Physics exercise while trying to conivce the ever choosy women to buy my fishcakes, i had been done so much things that should not be done by my age back then, and all these things just speed up, accelerates my maturity that i eventually grown to be much more premature in mentality compares to the same ages. and all these just a thank you to him!

Maybe you guys say working part time is gooood, gainig money, gainign experiences, having a more meaningful life. and yea, i have been using all these ideas in my MUET test and exams and essays, and i really have to tell you guys, i was lying to myself and i just realized it. Maybe i didn't fell it back then, but when i come into my age, going twenty, i looked back at my previous life, i was just screaming to myself:" what the hell wrong with my life? There's nothing there except tiredness." Yea, my life is gray, so much correspond to my prefer colour, everything is baclk, white, gray, dark colours. I want a PSP, PS2, Ps3, high tech computers, high tech handphones, hanging out with friends, hit the starbucks, san fransico, hit the secret recipe, going for a trip, getting on a ride to the west malaysia, hit the school camp, make fun with my friends back then, i want things like these in my memories and i really coundn't find something related to it.

I get a PSP to play, but its my bro and he took it back, saying its his.

I get a PS2 to play, but its my cousina ndis broken,

I won't get a PS3, cuz looking at the price just enough to turn me off.

I get a high tech comp, and i just scammed it from him, seriously, the most expensive in that store without any second thoughts.

I get a high tech handphone, but its my bro's girlfriend's that i have to say thank you to my sister-in-law?

I hanged out with my friends but found nothing to share with? (i think these friends know who they are cuz i just sit back and drink my, what? plain water?)

I not even stepped into starbuck, san fransico, secret recipe but i only took a cup of ultimate in coffee bean, which only happened these years?

I planned to go for a trip in the upcoming july but just going to cancel off cuz of uncoiecidence?

I planned to go to the west m'sia in the graduation trip but i say no thank you to my mom because you old and you have to enjoy now.

I rejected the class school camp back then just because i have to tend my stall.

I was so wanted to fit into the circle of thier life but eventually i just came out, knowing that i won't and i won't too in the future.

there;s jsut so much denies in my life, and all these hardship started off with he went out with someone?!that could be so dramatic that i not even know what was that supposed to mean to me? am i the male character now? and its just happened when i was 16. God, someone told me what was that about 16, fun! but never in my life. and all these hardships do strengthen myself, i'm not that weakling anymore, my heart is not soft but walled with iron wall.

and now when my heart is already that hard and iron taht "clang" when you hit it, he comes back doing things to payback! and its just not true in my eyes! HOw can you trust someone like this when he said he wants to payback but going out so late every nights till 0000 havent come back? That everyone in the night market saying that he has a woman helping him along? that i saw him with my own eyes that he lied and stayed with her?! NO WAY! Whatever that he is trying to do now, and all i want to say is, its too late!

So go away, i don't want to hear the voices of you adults anymore, pushing me here, forcing me there, ditched me when i needed guidance the most, i just don't want it anymore. Nora told me that i can choose my life, just as craazy as my dream.. Yea, sis, i did tell you that i will choose if i have a chance, but it seems the 3rd choice comes in, just give up everything and flow with the tides, let the waves bring me wheere i should go to....

alright, i know i have been far too far from my topic, but just couldn't help myself... Maybei should just go to sleep, who knows what wait for me tomorrow... more arguing?

High School Musical - A musical Ending -

Well, not really sure how many of you have seen this movie already, and even if i post it now, bet you guys will say, its sooooo late la~ haha, but anyway, i blog about it because i found something i wanted to share with you guys.

Well, through out this whole 2 hours, i can say its jusst memorable touching, full of the real life scenes in this movie, making decision, family, future and etc... Its just so real man, its should have on show on last two years, which was 2008, the year that i graduated from my beloved high school, Sabah Tshung Tsin Secondary School... Its just so suited to the movie...
we all cried
we all happied
we all touched
and now we stand, somewhere in this world, thinking and talking about the past, the lovely memory.

Well, aside from all those scenes, songs that really clicked in are like :

• Kelsi, Ryan, Troy, Gabriella - Just Wanna Be With You
• Troy, Gabriella - Right Here, Right Now
• Troy and HSM Cast - Now Or Never
• and the really touching and memorable one - Graduation Mix

Graduation Mix, its just so breathless... I can't really tell how much its meant to me, the lyrics said it all, so i linked an embeded video from youtube for this song. I will let the song tell you guys what this all about. I really wanna asked the Form 6 Council of my present school, can you guys pick this song as the theme during the upcoming graduation ceremony for us? I feel like wanted this song to touhc my heart on that day.....

So here i presented, High School Musical 3 - Graduation Mix.

Lyrics:
Ooooooh, oooooh
Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Here and now
its time for celebration
I finally figured it out (yeah yeah)
That all our dreams
have no limitations
That's what its all about

Everyone is special in their own way
We make each other strong (we make each other strong)
We're not the same
We're different in a good way
Together's where we belong

We're all in this together Once we know
That we are We're all stars
And we see that

We're all in this together And it shows
When we stand Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, were there for each other every time
Together, together come on lets do this right

We're all here and speaking out with one voice
we're going to rock the house (YEAH YEAH!)
the party's on now everybody make some noise
come on scream and shout

We've arrived because we stuck together
Champions one and all

We're all in this together
Once we know That we are
We're all stars And we see that

We're all in this together
And it shows When we stand
Hand in hand Make our dreams come true!

All in this together

Together, ahhhh
We're all in this together
Once we know That we are
We're all stars And we see that

We're all in this together
And it shows When we stand
Hand in hand Make our dreams true
We're all in this together
When we reach We can flyKnow inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see Theres a chance
That we have And we take it

Were all in this together

All in this Together!!

Brothers Bloom - Don't be a lier -

well, yesterday, in conjunction with hanging out with Adeline, the freaky cold YORK brand air con, we watched a movie named Brothers Bloom. So, why would we choose this?

first of all, its Emmelly's suggestion.

Secondly, no other movies that i really want to watch

Thirdly, its comedy. Now trust me, too much adventurous movies, those magic magic, killing killing, have just made me fed up with them, i want to watch something different, so i chose Brothers Bloom.

well i know, in the cinema, guess most of the people was snoozing.

So, what's this all about?

There're brothers, named Stephen and Bloom, where they had been doing the deception, the lies for their lives since they were still young. They even learned their con arts from a real con player Diamond Dog, but in the end, Stephen used a knife and "dug" his left eyes out. Since youth, Stephen always wanted to write a con which "everybody gets what they want." a great aim huh. Days passed day by day, life still moves on, and that's when the younger brother, Bloom (starred by Adrien Brody) voiced out that he had enough of this life, he wanted something different. This is because, most of the time, his life is just written by his older borhter, Stephen (starred by Mark Ruffalo) who is a novel-plot-maniac. I was really stunned by how simple he could to make the simplified plot with just a few boxes, few words and arrows. He is really a maniac in this.

So, as Bloom said he wanted to quit, of course, Stephen have to do something. At this point, we can see that the brothers have both diffferent aim in their life. Stephen wants a perfect con, Bloom wants a normal life. So Stephen suggested a last con, that they decepted a New Jersey lonely heirness, Penolope (starred by Rachel Wiez). Well, as always, the last thing a proffesional lier to do is to fall in love with the target and that's what happened to Bloom. Oh, forgot to mention, there's another girl here, Bang Bang (starred by Rinko Kinkuchi) who this girl is really the funniest part of the movie, she is the one that keep on doing things making you laugh~!

So, the rest of the stories, go to the cinema.

In this movie, the one that really touched my heart was the last scene where Stephen died. Now that's really touhching, he died on a stage. He got what he wanted, everyboyd gets what he wanted, finally he made the perfect con where Bloom got a normal life, Bang Bang "gone" so won't get assaulted by Diamond Dog, Diamond Dog got his revenge and money. That's it, the perfect con. Seeing his death let me remember a saying, "die on the stage is satisfying."

Overally, its a quite good movie, won't have any stunning scene or what, but will have occasionally laugh points. Won't have big big life theory but just a simple touching Brotherhood.

Seriously, when Bloom hugged Stephen( even though its a con, again), i felt so touched, this is a never going to happen thing between me and my older bro.

anyway, for those who won't like movie without i kill you you kill him, or zamzamarakaba or wa~ka~~~~~, you better don't watch it, its jusst a waste of time and money and, well, iresspectful to the movie and the cast.

Night at the Musuem: Battle of Smithsonian - Indulge Yourself In The Fantastic Imagination

well well well, finally i do some update, well seriously, its because i'm a bit of lazy and STREAMYX!!! oh! JUST HATE IT~~~

but thanks to the technician also la, not more than five minutes he solved the problem --- broken modem. ............. say earlier le mah~~~ make me totally like cant online for two weeks~!

anyway, back to the topic~

Its Ben Stiller rock the house again!

Oh god, i just love him so much~ His acting skills are just so good that i'm just :"woah~! awesome!"

If you ask me, the most memorable scene in this movie, it will be the scene that Ben "fights" with two Capuchins, aha~! that's just so FUNNY~! i mean it~ Dexter and Able, you guys rock~!

another stunning scene will be the climax part where Ben fights with Kahmunrah, the evil-yet-funny-and-dummy Pharoah. The way he flipped the torch, the way he moved his fists and kicks, oh my gosh man~! HE IS GOOD! Flipping-torch-fighting-scene can also be enjoyed at the first time Ben walked into the world-biggest-musuem that he encountered the night guard,
Brandon( is Brundun)
what Brundun? (yea Brundun)
Sorry its just so like Brandon (i'm not your language tutor and i said its Brundun, come on, you don't know this name?)
I dont think so. ( come one, its the world-greatest-baby-name in 1988~!)
[haha, this dialog is just some flashback on that scene, any wrong words used just a sorry to you guys~]

well, this movie is just as promising as the 1st hit, Night at the Musuem. The fun elements in this movie are just another booster for the Boxoffice, no doubt that its just getting way great expectaction from the people.

well, i can't really explain and tell you guys the detail of this movie, if you really want to know and want to realx and want to enjoy Ben's movie, go to the cinema and buy a popcorn and drink a coke, you will have a great day.

oh, don't buy pirated cd, its just not worth, if you REALLY want to enjoy, GO TO THE CINEMA! ITS WORTH~

girl a: so what's the use of this tablet?
Akhmenrah: huh?
girl b: yea, it must have some use if its given to you right?
Akmenrah: you really want to know? It can bring lifes from history.[mysteriious tone]
girl a: no seriously, what's the use of it?
girl b: its just an accessory right?
Akmenrah: yea, well, its an accessory [ wahtever tone]
girl a: see i knew it
girl b: yea, as i guess.


So go ahead, indulge yourself in the ever great fantasy of the fight of Smithsonian~!

Amelia Earhart: FREEZE ABRAHAM!
well this outfit is the one that i like, Ben is just so smart on it! (not the manager by the way, he is a jerk~! haha~)