Restriction

So, only left five more days before we have to sit for the trial exam. Somehow anxiety and nervous found their ways and creeped into my body; and i really appreciated them to come over to my place now as they will be the motivation for my study.

So, to aid my new alliance, i'm talking bout anxiety and nervous, i restricted myself to stay away from the computer until the trial exam is over.

Everyday i only allow myself to login twice into the restaurant city(oyea, who wants to trade?) and country story(don't steal my crops ah!) to get things done. Why twice? Because the moment i switch on my computer i login once and the moment before i shutdown the computer i login again.

As for relax hour, i only allow myself to play simple games(no not online and of course not DotA!!! Its the game that i hated most because it will just make me addicted to it!) for one hour. i.e. if i want to play at the evenning hour, then i can't play at the night and vice versa. But i think i will choose the night time because evening is really sleepy and i just realized how inefficient in study if ever tried to skip the nap. T.T

So, to make myself really stick to these rules, i come up with some punishment if i ever broke them.

First, i cannot watch "Mulligans The Movie".

I think for those who play golf, you know what is meant by mulligna, it means a second swing after a failure first swing during a practice or gameplay, but you can't do a mulligan in real competition. i.e. the theme of the movie resolves on life. Some may have the second chances, but sometimes, life is just no second chance.

So this movie resolves around a succesful father(means got family, got great financial etc). Nathan, who has been successfully hiding his true sexual orientation for 25 years, get into dilemma when his son, Tyler, brought his's best friend, Chase (who is gay and Tyler not know bout it ) for the summer vacation. Well of course Nathan and Chase got into the unspeakable affair, and i really want know how will the mother solves this tragedy, what will happen between Nathan and his wife, Nathan and his son and daughter, Tyler and Chase.

[oh yea, this is kinda a bit of LGBT movie but there's no exploitation on xxx-scene, even watchmen is more exploited if you know what is it. but still, if you are homophobic, please don't critisize anything, you can just walk away and forget about this post. The thing that i want to look into is, how a family work. Just like the story writer, Chalie Davod(roled Chase) saidthe thing that this movie wanted to come up with was what and how exactly was behind a family. They can be great in front of anyone, but after the door closed, noone knows.]

So, as i really want to know how it turns out to be, if i broke the rule, i can't watch it.T.T

Second, i cannot learn to play guitar.

i still remember that i got addicted to guitar when Joaane's brother, Jonathan first taught me how to hold a guitar during a prefect AJK meeting sometime during this mid of year. I just so want to learn to play it, and i already got the mentor, just left to wait until after the STPM. So, if i ever screwed up this trial, bet guitar just won't be in my hand. ANd this rule is ON until the end of real STPM.

So, so far i come up with thses two rules, hmmhmm, if got any extra will edit this post again.

So, goodluck to all my friend and wish you all the best! :P

P/S: this will be the last post until end of trial.

Doomdays Countdown- LESS THAN TWO MONTHS-

Well, the exact date of the STPM exam, if not wrong, is on 19 of November for its our bio paper. SO have to make sure then just do the coutdown clock..wait for it..

The chemistry paper 2 result were given today... well though i got 49, achieved the second highest mark in my class ( Hii's the top), and though many congratulated me (like Samson, Felicia, Angelina etc), i seriously didn't feel any proud of that mark, its 49 / 100. OMG, can't really imagine what would happen if i got this mark in the real one. If i'm sitting it using my ability now, Chem paper is going to be screwed, BADLY. (i wonder why i always worried bout Chem only, oh, there's just a trick there...)

Got the P.A also, getting 53 marks, kinda relief actually because i used the wrong format at section E and my sectiona and B just screwed cuz teacher really stick to the schema this time.

Been waiitng to get scolded for Maths 2 but teachers, surprsingly, didnt give backt he paper today..hmmhmm..just haunted me more

The final destination is just around the corner, with my bio lagging a whole load behind, chemistry hanging tough on the ope, P.A refilling lucky-bullets, and Maths in line with the death, seriously, how can i face it?

GreenDay -21 Guns-

Well, this song, seriously i have no idea why am i addicted to it.
First, hard metal songs, hip hop, rap, dance, those noisy electronic songs have never been in my favourite song list, okay, somehow Black Eye Peas, Linkin Park, and eventually Green day made their ways into the list; even Lady GaGa.

So, this 21 Guns, a mixture of punk and modern rock, also one of the new songs that just clicked in my head.

Like Smile, it will just keep on repeating itself in my mind.

But seriously it is very good. Worth a try, :P

So, here i give you, again, Green day with 21 Guns.



P/S: no wonder it clicked in my head, its one of the songs in Transfomer: Revenge of The Fallen. Anyone could tell me which scene is it?? kinda forgot, but i do know i heard it before....

Lyrics:
Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
you and I

PPS: seriously, the lyric is so meaningful

Uncle Kracker -Smile-

Well, you guys still remember the song that i mentioned at somewhere of the previous posts? The one i said with lyric" you made me... sing like a bird, ... you made me smile." that one?

yeap, i finally found it~!!!!

Its Uncle Kracker, the song named Smile.

Its reall good. This is also one of the songs that just clicked in my head when i first heard it.
Oh my god, become so addicted to this song!

So here we go, Uncle Kracker with Smile!

-Sorry guys, can't find the official video from the youtube.com, so have to put this up-



Seriously, this song made me think of someone, especially the first line of the chorus:
"you made me smile like a sun."

Eagle Eye - Is A.I. really that good? -

Well for those who had seen this movie, i know you are going to say, "you so out la!" because its really a movie that was looooooooooooooooooooooooong time ago, its on 2008! I only seen it today, my bad, i just cant move my ass to the cinema to watch movie during this STPM period ( Jun 08 till now ) because just don't have the mood to.

So eventually i developed a habit of watching Youtube or download... hmmm... so much guilt came in my heart when seeing this banner "Software Privacy Is A Crime" at Karamunsing lately... T.T

Anyway, back to the topic, Eagle Eye was a movie talking bout two commoners, Jerry Shaw and Rachel Hollander, which were dragged into a series of increasingly dangerous tasks by just a phone call from a mysterious woman. That's the cover.

The whole thing actually was a computer, or precisely, an artificial intelligent computer which controls the Ministry of Defense of America or even more precisely, its control area originated from the Air Force One until the very cell phone that a citizen owned. Imagine what this disco-ball-like A.I. computer can do, control the traffic light, tracking people through the UFO (CCTV), remote cranes, even mysteriously causes accidents. Here's a peek of the computer:

The computer name is ARIA.

The whole thing actually started when civilians of rural areas of Middle East get killed as one of the people was mistaken as a terrorist. This happened because the USA president insisted that elimination was to be carried out even though the computer ARIA suggested abortion of mission due to insufficient data. Hence, computer ARIA decided that the superios branch of USA consisted of 12 people included that President were to be killed for the sake of good citizens and the Secretary of Defence should be the successor of the president as he agreed with the abortion of mission at the first place. So, ARIA developed a plan and it should be carried out smoothly but was held back by a technician, Ethan Shaw(yes, Jerry twin brother) as he locked the plan. So, ARIA killed Ethan which made up as car accident and ARIA eventually dragged Jerry into this whole thing as Jerry is the key to Ethan's lock. Rachel is dragged along as the assistant of Jerry if not, her son Sam is going to say bye-bye to her.

See, the whole thing is, this ARIA, an A.I. can plan something so freaky crazy that its out of the control of human. Noone know that it was the ARIA behind all these except the dead Ethan.

Matrix, Terminator and many other movies all stated that A.I. can be really harmful in the future. They can race over human if human becomes too dependant on A.I.

So in the end of this movie, the Secretary of Defence declined another build of A.I. computer, for the real good sake of citizens.

So, here's the question, you guys really think that A.I. is benefictial? or should i say the question in this way, Is disadvantages more than advantages or vice versa?

Malaysians can die IF...

Well pals, think i could use some updates here. So here's the thing, the sources of the article i am going to present to you is solely obtained through my own observation and hence, solely conducted by myself. So, if anyone of you who is offended by it, i apologize before any complicated matters rise up.

So, what's the deal with this "Malaysians can die IF?"

If this question comes out "Malaysians could not survive without what?"

I definitely will say "PLASTIC BAG!"

Why? Because 7 out of ten customers who happened to buy at my stall will end up saying
1. " boleh kasih double? "
2. "boleh kasih plastic besar?"
3. "boleh minta plastic besar?" even though she only bought a fishcakes size 5cmx5cm, imagine it

now that's why malaysia is always putting up a bad image on cleaniness. Because malaysians are not appreciated with this little plastic bag that they take it for granted.

Buy a can of coke, plastic bag.
Buy a pencil box set? plastic bag.
Even how dramatically that buying medicine with their plastic cover already, they will still ask for a bag. For what?

Can't malaysians just carry them with their hands? or put them into the purse or whatever? the bags are not for decoration, especially those women's shopping bag that are so BIG with little things inside. Come on, it surely can fit in a med, at least.

So, to deal with this, my mom and worker ended up putting this on, whoever buying or ask for extra plastic bags, we requested for Rm0.30.

Hello? actually its cheap already, but our proud Malaysians who happen to SO frustrating with the facts that we SELL the plastic bag instead of GIVING them, they can end up scolding you BITCH. Trust me.

So, i believe, this plastic bags matter are really a drag in our economy. Imagine how much you could save IF Survey, CKS, markets, shops and many others more decline usage of plastic bag and support paper bags, or just self carry.

For me myself, i always go to Milimewa, buy some tiny little things and just tell them i don't want the plastic bag. And even more surprise was that when i bought a medicine from DOSES (is it? ) at Damai there, the shopkeeper gave me the plastic bag before i realized. However, there's a sign there saying:" If you don't need to use a plastic bag, please do tell us so. Let's save the Earth together." So i ended up pulling my medicne out and gave back the bag to tha lady and smile, without feeling ashamed or what. See, tiny effort, one step towards saving out earth.

I know many people will not survive this, but i sure do hope that our goverment will implant the banning of extra usage of plastic bag, it really can save the earth. Just use paper bags. though i myself quite not support it cuz paper means cutting tree. (oh they ar wasted papers, fine though) or just use basket. people, bring your basket or your PVC nylon bag~

Or if not, self-carry it. why? because there's just a shop at China there, a med shop, it won't supply any method of carrying the products. If you ask the keeper how to take this home, he will just tell you "figure it out yourself."


I, Watson Chung, in support of cutting usage of plastic bag and saving our Mother Earth.

!Speard the words people!

One More Day

One more day for our excel, which is Maths P2, the suck-est paper in my study list. Just donno why even though i read it, i end up left everything blank. So, totally no mood to pick up the book, not mention to flip through the book or to read through the details.

Today ended the Chemistry P1, seriously, i kinda relieved when i saw my marks for it
(yea, Mr.Chua corrected the papers right after the exam, so hardworking huh?) ---- 37/50
such a surprise to me because i didnt study chemistry in the weekend, well i thought we were having our maths p2 today, who knows it turned out that i inversed the time of these two subjects. >.< when doing it, actually not really scare even though i didnt study, because sorry to say ( i know i might hurt people if i said this) its easy. nothing much complicated in this paper, only few, seriously counted also less than 5 questions (for me la).
[don kill me and don feel offended :)]

For the Chemistry P2, which was the biggest fear in my study list, i ended up doing it okay (just be humble), okay. well personally thought that my physical part is really weak and didnt revise it at all, i dumped organic parts this time (bad move though). so it ended up that i did quite okay in my physical part and inorganic part while my orgaince part is like wasted (considering two question mixed together you only got one question's full mark? that's call wasted for me). Well ,y own bad also, its because i didnt really study and revise it thoroughly. Its easy (and again don kill me) and its reasonable.
[my own bad]

Well, i think the killer for today should be the results for Maths P1, though its again no big deal for me as i just get somewhere around my previous mark. However, things dont seem right for those who score high usually, so i saw many classmates got into the emo-state and some even teary already. That's why i told Joaane that the reason Samson is whispering his result is because its totally unexpected for everyone this time and of course we don't want to hurt others. Cheers for all of them:)

Settled the problem around me just on Saturday, but the bigger problem came in. Well, it can say that my heart is dead for this stupid person, just ask him (to avoid any complicated situations, its my dad) to get out of my life. I really tired already till i cant feel any anger this time. It would be much better if he can just get out of here :0

Finished downloaded The O.C. Season 2 hooray, just imagine what will i do on this upcoming Hari Raya Holiday. MOvie time:)

Heard a song with chorus :" you made me smile like a ______, sing like a bird,. ..." who know whose song and what song is this??? please do tell me because the melody is in my head now and i really want to know~~~

戴佩妮-单身潜逃-

戴佩妮-单身潜逃

我没有你想象中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗

我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会痛

我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样相信永远不远
可坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷折叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷折叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃


我没有你想象中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装
不是吗

我没有你形容的那么勇敢
我偶尔也会痛

我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样相信永远不远
可坚持却有点难

就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷折叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷折叠我累积的问号
开始一次 单身潜逃


就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃
带着现实的拷折叠我剩余的微笑
通往没有你的轨道

就让记忆中的你慢慢老
老去了谁也得不到
带着我的祈祷折叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

带着我的祈祷折叠我累积的问号
开始一次的单身潜逃

Not In The Mood

Its been second day since the start of our excel, but seriously i don't have the mood to face this exam. I just can't bring myself up and hold the book. What's wrong with me eh? I'm really not in the mood for these.

Speaking of which, its been a rough month; at least for me. So much happened around me for the past few weeks, and most of them were sad; can't really think of any good things.

I am really tired. When these all end? Kinda hate the way i live now. Something just seems not right.

And regarding the post "Stop It", i thought about what i have done. Surprisingly, i found myself to make a stupid mistake again. "oops i did it again~" isn't it there's a song like this? Well, yea, i did it again. Once again realized my own mistake, which led to utter complicated matters.

Haih...when will these end...

Stop It

Why you messaged me when i was not expecting your message?

Why you find me when i totally did not have your thoughts in my mind?

Why exactly you always pop up suddenly when i thought i just had my own space?


Why?

I really don't know why you kept on doing these to me.

I did not think of you for these days.

because i don't think i deserve it.

that's why i backed out.


But just when i thought i am free from you,

you haunted me back.


Now my minds are just all about you.

Why the heck you messaged me if you just wanted to make a no-reply message?

You made me eager for your reply.

But in the end you didn't.


Just who i am to you?

Or should i say just what i am to you?

Stop messing up my life if you just wanted to be that way.


and now you leave my minds to utter frustrated condition.

Every single second i thought about you.


I hate the way i am when i think of you.

Because i just can't focus in everything i should deal with.


I hate the way you made me think of you.

Because you just made me become a stupid in the end.


Maybe that's why i have been avoiding you.

Because i fear that i can't hide my anger and frustration to you.


Stop messing up my life.

I really don't want us to end things this way.