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Thursday, October 29, 2009

Fallin' For You - Colbie Caillat - Final Decsion

Well well, this one of the songs that keep repeating in the radio, in people's handphone, and heeps, in my mind :)

Its a very nice song, with this sing-along rythm, gosh, have no ideas how artists able to make me addicted to their songs ^^v

So, here's a video i found in youtube, the official videos. Enjoy It!!!

P/S: What's with this "The Final Decision"??? Just scroll down!!!





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-The Final Decision-

Your smile, your trick, what you did and what you said...

They are inside my head,

inside my heart...



And i am glad that i didn't take that move...

For now i know,

A person can really love someone,

Far behind his or her back...

Giving the loved one,

The sincere and simple wish;

That they live,

Happy ever after...



And i am glad that i didn;t take that move...

For now i know,

I really play an important role in your life,

be it good,

be it bad,

be it blessed,

be it annoyed,

you accepted me for who i am,

and i accepted for who you are;

what link our heart,

is not our names,

but the chemistry between us...



Whether or not,

you will remember me,

far in the future,

i think,

i won't care...

because for i will always remember you...

For what you have given me,

Is the best gift in my life....



Promise me,

you will live on,

strong and firm...

Whether you will see this or not,

there will always be a person,

who accept who you truly are...



Thank you, kiddo...

And i guess

I really do fall for you...

P/S: I Love You

Monday, October 26, 2009

面对·接受

“一个不能完全接受自己的人,也就不能接受来自陌生人的祝福。”---钟协锦。


同一个人,看见了自己给与了他希望。

同一个人,却也看见了他的失望。

之间的错综复杂,实在让人感叹;

世间,为何往往都是那么的冷淡?


一个不能完全了解并明白自己的人,

就不能了解及明白别人对他的看法。

一个不能完全面对并接受自己的人,

就不能面对及接受别人给他的祝福。


因为怀疑往往是伴随着万恶的首脑;

怀疑、避忌、心计,黑暗在侵蚀着内心。

一个简单的祝福,也能成为罪恶。


“病从口入,祸从口出。”

了解这句话的人,又真正有几个。


凡事看得简单些,也许自己的生活也好过些。


凡事以真诚去看待,也许你会发现,有人被你感动。


抛开自己的想法,让身边的气流告诉你,你错在哪里。


因为没有人会想到,一个自认为理直气壮地骂语,

却也把一个单纯的心,撕得完无全体。


不知有多少人,尝试过,心碎的滋味……


“一个不能完全接受自己的人,也就不能接受来自陌生人的祝福。”---钟协锦。

Monday, October 19, 2009

Where Is The Hellbound?

So, after a whole weekend of rest (literally i really meant rest which means movie, music and games, :P), the official countdown of STPM exam started today, see my clock up there?? you can see it right?? :P

So, the assembly today was pretty much, errr, donno how to say, nonsense??? The smoking culture in our school got back to its trail again (yes, this only happened after we all are not the AJKs anymore, the new AJKs seem to need more focus on this matter o...), so our "lovely-Thunder-God-aka-Zeus-aka-En.S" made his tunder voice again in the hall, seriously i see no reason for him to use the mic, there's not even a need to. And guess what? He said that the janitors will pick up the cigarette butts from now on and the school enforcement will send them to any departments related for DNA fingerprint, like... Police Department??? Just how free are the police to take care of matters such as "this"??? Oh yeah, they are pretty much free though, XD

To me this sound stupid and unreliable, the main factor here is not solved, yet they are seeking any other factors or solving method, is it they are escaping the facts that the TEACHERS ARE LAZY TO GET THEIR BUTTS ON THE BLOCKS JUST TO RUN A CHECK THROUGH???!!!

Trsut me, after being a year and a half of AJK prefect, we all know why this "culture" couldn't be solved; they should appreciate that under our "supervision", the culture somewhat diminished...

its just they resurrect again, Phoenix Reborn!


After that, we had our biology classes, as usual, its worthless for our time, and i just took my time to read through the Q&A that i always bring along; it is my bible, XD a

Then she said the test is cancelled, just took it as discussion or whatsoever. Well it does good for me though, for i totally not in the mood to retrail again, speak of laziness, WAHAHAHA~

So, as i gotten extra care from the luck goddess Herself, i passed my Bio Paper 2(and with it the whole Bio Paper) and i got 68 marks! Phew~~~ FINALLY~~ i raced over myself and achieved the passing mark in my previous high school STTSS again~!!! lucky~

So in this trial, i managed to:

  • strive two papers to the passing mark of 60 (oh yea, for anyone who don't know, this is the quota i set for myself)
  • chemistry left down there, needed some extra care from me, basically due to imbalance in revising the three brothers, namely Physical, Organic and Inorganic(trust me though, inorganic become easier each time i revised....heep?? this is so unbelievable for i hate this most in my UEC!)
  • the only dragging burden to her siblings, Maths, i failed both of them, 33 and 34, shameful eh??? Though Ms.Voo said i did better than before already, just keep it up and i can pass, hopefully its true!

So, with the final countdown is on, nothing else left to worry about except strive for the best!

Good Luck everyone!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Blind - Ben Sigston

Well, as i mentioned, i have been searching through the internet for this song, but to no avail its just not available, so i assumed three conclusions for this:
  1. it is very copyright protected that even iTunes doesn't have it(i checked iTunes already, my friend said its not available, but his other songs are.)
  2. its not even on sale yet. Maybe Ben Sigston hasn't make it on-sale on the markets???
  3. It is entirely for the movie Mulligans, well~

Well, though the sources are little, there still got some faint hope de.

On CBC - Make Some Noise there's a clip of this song, and this is the only one that is lag-free and very clear, for me. So, if you really want to know why i am so addicted to this song, try it:

http://www.cbc.ca/makesomenoise/music/ep06/

The first song itself is Ben Sigston's Blind.

hmm, donno this will offend the copyrights or not, if it does please let me know, because i wrote this lyrics down when i ma listening to the song. So this entirely created by me, maybe i am the one that have to make copyrights, @_@

Blind - Ben Sigston

Open you eyes
Open you mind
You know that truth
Is hard to find

Say that you see it
Say that you free
When now that you know
Its to be told

There goes my life
Its passing by
Where does it go
I'll never know

There go my dreams
Right on the door
Push them away
Don't say no more


Open you eyes
Open your mind
You say you see
But you are blinded

Blinded by facts
Blinded by lies
So raise your head
Try not to cry

There goes my life
Its passing by
Where does it go
I'll never know

There go my dreams
Right on the door
Push them away
Don't say no more

Its for you
Its for you
Its for you


Open your eyes
Open your mind
You know that truth
Is hard to find

There goes my life
Its passing by
Where does it go
I'll never know

There go my dreams
Right on the door
Wish them good bye
Say that you walking away
And you leave them behind
Cause you saw
And you loved
And you said that you see it
And you gonna to free it
Its al-alright
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If you guys realized, the chorus is really meaningful, its completely showed the randomness in life; you won't know what exactly will happen. And truth, is not just everyone could see. Maybe, they are all blinded...

The words in Italic form is really a compressed version of that movie Mulligans, that's what all of it. Example, Chase left the happiness he found, he left everything behind. He closed the door eventually, and his life just passed by that summer, and he has to move on...

I couldn't really write out all the understanding in my minds, its needs experience. So, depends on you guys, different people might have different feeling.

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The novel, Mulligans, i have been hunting it too. I chekced by Popular and Times, and both gave negative results. Left with Harris, but its seems stupid becuase Malaysia won't order this book one(i felt so)..

So i prepared myself to order it through amazon.com, wich measn USA or CANADA, haih, just thought of the currency is enough to make me worry!

So to cut down the cost, i msn my friend in USA, a real funny friend for me, he is somewhat a dream that i never can achieved for my entire life.

Okay, back to the topic. I really didn't think of that before, but he said he is going to send it as a gift for me. @_@, if you asked me i will say this is a dream, and i really hope that it won't turn out as a nightmare.

Its easy enough, because noone treated me this way before. For my entire life, i give more than i receive. Not that i am complaining, but its really never happened before. If want to count, from my mom, to sis Nora, to buddy Yogurt, to buddy C.K, to buddy Emmelly(yea meh?), to buddy Renge(hmm), to buddy WC, even to Princess(haha), he is the next one...see, the ninth person that treated me this way before...

"Thank you and i really appreciate it! Ready to buy you a meal! :)" this is what i really wanted to say to him now:P

Just as he said :" Here comes October where Miracle happens".

Thanks to Libra:)

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Mulligans - The Novel

Well, i have been searching through the internet for the OST of Mulligans, but to no avail, the sources are really little.

The only hope to get the full list of the OST, maybe its just iTune, which need money, T.T
Hopefully my freind could help me through this, ~~

So, as i seacrched through the internet, i found out that Mulligans actually is not just a movie, instead, it also exsists paperwork; a novel.

Both written by Charlie David, but, the novel has a different storyline as compared to the movie itself.

"...if you like the story, mind that it's different from the movie, and that difference is centred around Chase's experience, past, present and future...." by elisa_rolle's journal
(for full review please click in)

When i saw this, i know i am doomed. The urge to get the book just filled in my mind, T.T how!!!
Its different storyline!!! i really wanted to know what happen in the novel, because the movie is touching enough to make me almost cried; sobbing?

argh~~~ I just donno what to do, with this book, so far, only available in amazon.com, and there are two other books in my mind, namely The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown and Superior Saturday by Garth NIx, imagine how much money i got to have??? awws, sucks!!

Popular, Times, Harris, get your bookstore to have Mulligans!!! i really don't want to buy the book across a large continent!!!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Mulligans - A Second Swing-

Well, finally no more exams, at least not now, though next week still has this tupid Biology Re-trial, really dunno why she wants this (whack!!!)
So, i let myself, took a one night free, fulfilled my own promise to my restriction, i watched "Mulligans".
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Its really a great one, i should say. Can't really point out any flaws; the only flaws i think is its too short! Felt like somewhat rushing, without realize its already one and a half hour and the credits is on showed already. Can't get enough of it.

But ah, for those who more into action movies or like those movies with @#$%^&* argue llike no tomorrow one, you might have to reconsider to watch this movie, because even i personally admit that if i watch this movie two or three years ago(lucikly it was made this year :)), i would have snoozed off in the half way.

Well, already 20-years-old, guess somehow mind will change, which i can take in movies such as these types that deal more with the inner feelings of the characters.

hmmhmm...

So, for those who had been reading up my posts, i think i had made a short synopsis for what is this movie deal for, let me paste it here:

"I think for those who play golf, you know what is meant by mulligna, it means a second swing after a failure first swing during a practice or gameplay, but you can't do a mulligan in real competition. i.e. the theme of the movie resolves on life. Some may have the second chances, but sometimes, life is just no second chance.


So this movie resolves around a succesful father(means got family, got great financial etc). Nathan, who has been successfully hiding his true sexual orientation for 25 years, get into dilemma when his son, Tyler, brought his's best friend, Chase (who is gay and Tyler not know bout it ) for the summer vacation. Well of course Nathan and Chase got into the unspeakable affair, and i really want know how will the mother solves this tragedy, what will happen between Nathan and his wife, Nathan and his son and daughter, Tyler and Chase.

[oh yea, this is kinda a bit of LGBT movie but there's no exploitation on xxx-scene, even watchmen is more exploited if you know what is it. but still, if you are homophobic, please don't critisize anything, you can just walk away and forget about this post. The thing that i want to look into is, how a family work. Just like the story writer, Chalie Davod(roled Chase) saidthe thing that this movie wanted to come up with was what and how exactly was behind a family. They can be great in front of anyone, but after the door closed, noone knows.]"

From: Restriction

So yeah, Mulligans means a second action or a second play for a player after a failure swing of golf. But what about in real life? Do you get a chance to swing for the second time?

Dan Payne who starred Nathan Davidson, the father, really made this movie into a real-show of a reality. Be it the problems of his affair with his son's best friend, Chase or the problems with his wife, Stacy. Throughout this whole drama, you can see that its the compressed mode of the dramas everyday you can see in your life.

One point i wanna point out though, Stacy is the typical mother who so scare about his children on early exposure to sex-related matters while her daughter, Birdie Davidson, is the typical modern kid who knows more than they should. And just think bout what grandma said to Stacy:" She will find out some days, beside, its nothing wrong with an earlier education."
See, just how importan sex education is??!!

Chase and Tyler, the buddies, also put more dramatic effect into this movie, sometimes you just donno you should laugh or worry, the timing things happen is just so unexpected. and they made it even better, really like both of their acting skills.

Its really a nice movie, even though its gay-orientated, there's no exploitation. Nice quotes, nice drama skills, nice storyline, touching reality, and i tell you, its ending, kinda...
(scroll down and see!)
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Quotes:
"..Make you wanted to do the things you want, you know, it all goes by so fast" and "I'm just saying that to just leave my mark somehow." by Chase Rousseau (starred Charlie David)

This quote shows life passes by very fast before we know, and we all wanted to leave something behind. I guess this pretty much is true, i suppose each and everyone of us got our own dream, rite?


"You can't blame a person for who they are." by Stacy Davidson (starred Thea Gill)

A person is still the same person no matter what has happened; i guess this is pretty much most homo-friends been want others to look on them.


There are pretty much more quotes that are meaningful, and the one i most like is this:

"Choice is after you made it at that time, and your make them and your new life becomes your life." by Nathan Davidson ( starred Dan Payne)

This qoute is the first quote stuck in my head tonight, we did hear something like these before, but the storywriter(Charlie David) used another way to present it---after you made a choice, that choice evntually becomes your life no matter how you don't like it."

So imagine it, for 25 years Nathan has been living a lie to himself, he denied his own sexual orientation and chose to build a family; no matter how "unreacted" he is with women, he already made the choice his life.

So friends, let's learn something from this movie. We got dreams, and some of us might just not be able to pursuit our dreams, we have to make sacrifices. This is reality because sometimes life just s merciless. But pals, don't live a life that you have to lie to yourself. Well of course you don't want to live a 40-years-plus like Nathan and realize that you have been living a lie and everything is fake??? That's the real nightmare in your life.

I know most of us started to figure out what to do after STPM, local universities, going oversea, choosing what degrees, getting what careers; all these, i'm sure, have been ringing in everyone's mind these days. Well, i just want to say, after almost two years after my UEC in STTSS, i learnt something and that is called:" don't choose something that you not even have any interest in."

Your life, your choice.
Seriously there is noone else can interrupt your decision. However, as i said, reality doesn't always goes on the way we hope, so if you have to choose something else than your dream, choose an alternative that at least, you have the interest in.

Don't be like my friends those who went oversea study for let say pharmacy and reason? their dads want them to.

I know parents play a major role here, but the even major decision-maker is in your hand. Use it wise. Because, we might not have the chance to do a Mulligan; a second swing.
Don't let things like, " oh, how i wish the time could be reversed." happen.
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The secne i liked most, The Ending. (contain spoilers!)

The ending is really touching, really unexpectedly simple and yet touching. You see, at the end Nathan leaves the family and pursuit his life, all over again, wtihout losing his own family(huh?). Means he leaves the house physically, but mentaly he is still there, loving everyone of them. That's why its titled Mulligan-the second swing.

While i really wonder bout Chase, because the ending(or so) didn't mention about what happened on him except Tyler accepted him back as the buddy and he is leaving the town. So, what happen bout between Nathan and Chase?

Credits is rolling~~~ i was like @_@, don't tell me this is it, i will scream like hell one!!! no ending?!!! out of dismay and kinda started to dissapointed, i left the credits rolled because the ending song, Turn Around by Ben Sigston is really good....

Then a scene cut in, with Chase sitting on the bus stop's bench, a white bus stopped by. Chase put belongings on the bus, and he left. The scene showing the bench without anyone on there; all these times the background music is Ben Sigston's Blind, with lyrics:
Open you eyes open your mind you know that truth is hard to find
say that you see say that you free with nothing to know is to be told
there goes my life is passing by where does it goes i'll never know there goes my dreams...

So, Chase was just a passerby, after all...
I can't really coice out the feeling, it will be better if you watch it yourself, its really mixng, and at that moment, i felt like tears are rsuhing out alreayd, Charlie David is really amazing because this final ending is acted without showing facial expression, we can only see his leg, hopping up on bus..then gone...

This is a really nice movie, i am just so touched...

Remember, your choice is your new life, and you new life becomes your life.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Is Death so eager for my return???

Doomsday is one month from now, but hellbounds ar ellike scouting for lost souls to bring to the netherland, heck, why exams again???

Today got back my P.A papers, kinda happy cuz my Paper 2 finally matches my previous high school, STTSS's passing mark, which is 60 and i got 65!! :), can't help feeling happy :P really thanks to the section B which taked bout Plastic(chemsitry :)) and section E, which i got 14/15, OMG, first time!!!

Maths time, Ms.Voo talked bout marking scema, kinda boring for me, cuz i really nont interested in this, so i drifted away.......

Chemistry, OMG...so panic this before getting my paper back, kept on talking to Emmelly and renge to relief my stress. You see, i know my Paper 1 got 21/50 already, so the only hope is realy Paper 2, but just can't help have a feeling of anxiety. When Mr. Chua called my name and made a sign of "bad" by shaking his head and jik jik jik, which Kwong put in 23 marks oni!!!, i was like @_@, OMG, i will really cry de la!!!!


BUT!!! its 51 la!!!! fewwww, really felt the relief, its like the whole big stone got put down on ground already~~~ BUt, the real thing hasn't come yet.

Mr. Chua asked few classmates about the questions' standard, and much of them commented real hard, and i guess in the end will get to me one, so i just honestly said the real thing here. Its not hard, its in the book, everything is there. I know i sounded egoistic, but that's pretty much the real deal. Everything is just inside the book, if can't get the marks, maybe you are just llike me,"aiyo, i read this topic before, but i can't remember it!!!" that's why i never can't get on trail of Gan, Hii and Samson. So, Mr.Chua said what i said is truth (people don kill me) so he wanted a second trial, see, first hellbound, T.T and tomorrow is going to be the test!! 3 structure questions and 3 essays!!! haih, i really dunno how, my mind stuck now, not really know here to start, haih~~~


Biology, getting back my paper 1, 26/50, haha, not really prepare for Paper 1, so maybe i deserve this??? But i saw others all range from 22 to 30, so i guess its just the way it is??? or there got people get higher than that??? and ho, that stupid woman ah( be a gentleman bah) give us a second trial on next Thursday also wo... SWT!!!! she just so like to follow people because she said it after hearing our chemistry got second trial, haih~~~

Hellbound on the chase!!!! and i don't realy know how to handle this~~~
i want watch movie la!!!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Doomsday??? Not Really

So, the end of 12 October 2009 marked the end of our trials, one of the Gate of Hell is closed, but another doomsday is awaiting not too far from now, the official one month count down to the real deal, STPM exam.

Suddenly think of Linkin Park's Minute To Midnight album, i like the song "What I've Done". ^^v, ok, don't get carried away.

So, personally i marked today as the final doomsday of trial, Biology Papers, as i really didn't ready for this subject; speak of memorizing all the facts only one week before the trial. TT, its suiciding. But heck, the outcome??? kinda better than Chemistry. Oh yeah, chemistry...will touch on this later.

So, Bio Paper 1, seriously, was the most -unstressful paper for me. Its all factual things you see, if you donno the facts, you can't think the correct answer and eventually you just rely on your luck bullets in your sniper. So, 15 minutes, i was in Question 25++ already; another 15 minutes, i was at Q40++; a total of 40 minutes something? I was done and just kinda slacking there and half-snoozing off to my dream world. You will fell lucky enough to do this compared to the Physics studens, i'm lucky i chose Bio(yeah, hoory to frog's jumping!!!)

Bio Paper 2, i was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, sweat when i saw the paper actually, i was like:"@_@, what is this? all from the past years???" Question 1 to Question 4, its about Immunity, Bohr's Effect(gaseous exchange), Photosyntheses on ATP syntheses and crossing over for genetic. Out of the four question, Q2(bohr's effect) was exactly the same in past year(hooray), i think the one we didnt study before is the corssing over value for THREE genotypes! huh?? i opened my eyes to cuont, 1,2,3... THREEEEE!!! sweat, but calculating c.o.v can get 10 marks oh??? so sweat la this. Easy jobs for these four question, okay, don't be too ego, moderate la, just donno la, kinda felt llike hitting around the bush, but the explaination really that long what?!! For the essay part, another @_@, what the? 5 out of 6 questions are from past year, come on la, we are not sitting for past-year-examination okay, we are sitting for STPM, a real deal, can't she just change a bit the questions?? don't copy exaclty mah!!! and ah, out of six question, three are ecology, i know ecology is a hot quesiton, but they alaways make it biodiversity, ecology, ecosystem, quantitave eco and taxonomy all together one!!! either combine two or three for a 15marks question, where got three questions in one go?!!!! the syllabus is totlaly out of scope, where are organelles?? cells??? transport? enzymes? DNA? homeostasis?? hormone? someone got and whack this stupid woman!!!(okay, be gentleman bah!!!) So part B, moderate la, only got hope in getting one question almost full and the three, plus there minus there lo~~


For chemistry, kinda sad this. well can't say anything also, not really prepared well, cuz this time i focus too much in organic what, causing a drop in physical part, i wonder how can i acutally tolerate these two. Saw those kinda disappointed feeling in Mr.Chua's eyes, aiay, making me felt so bad..the sentence:"even Watson also donno what happen, twenty-one oh!" this is kinda like a sword piercing through my heart, TT, terus i slept in front of him for that two periods bah...so ngam also the day got heavy rain and only 10 kittens in the class...dismay~~~ just hope paper 2 can make me smile~~~~

BUT!!! BUT BUT BUT, where got people get let down so easily one????!!! If at the limit alreayd, might as well push into trance, i got one month, and i can't really waste this one month, for scoping at least a B in chem is my aim!!!


Maths??? okay, this ia really funny one~~~ haih, study is equivalent to no study, this is Watson's Law of Maths-equation, don't forget!!! everything just went blank, its so serious till i can't even understand the question, until Ms.Voo pointed:' you have to prove this to prove that." i was like:"@_@, actually, teahcer ah, i can't even understand the question lo!!" She burst into laugh this,and thanks to Hii, Tan and Samson to laugh along!!! Swt, leevel??? NO HOPE


P.A, i think its ust like Emmelly said, only got this one is somewhat ok one, i passed my Paper 1 and i got basic marks 50 for Paper 2 alreayd, so happy this.. Paper 1 i just hold the Buddha's leg one day ebfore the trial, can't believe i actulaly start studying P.A Paper 1, which even more facts than Bio!! Level??? Relief!!!


So, the countdown clock is on...tick toc tick toc tick tick toc toc <---oh yea, this is NKOTB's 2 In The Moring prelulde, ahahahah, its a nice song! so, i had a great nap in this afternoon, everything is fine for now :), excpet my kakak sicked and i have to tend the stall, TT, no stress-relief even for just one night, i want watch movie!!!!

So, have fun pals, you only have one more month to go!!!!

P/S: upcoming post include:
  • Mulligans - The War In A Family
  • Falling For you - Colbie Caillet - The Final Decision