Faith?

Been through alot lately, as i mentioned on the previous post, yet time doesn't seem to heal any wounds on my heart; part of it still lurking around, nightmares that make me cry in the dream, always leave me have the blue-mood on the next day. Certainly not a sense of pouring it out to anyone, because the heart and the mind not even coordinate to work together.

Leave is all i want, but still, i am bound to the reality.

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Other than that, every working day is a surprise for me. I don't really know what kind of good deeds that i did in my previous life, i don't even know what kind of good personalities i have that my bosses are promoting me every week.

Speak of teaching A-level Chemistry, that is enough to make me have a feeling of "@_@, what the?" Even the only two printers at the office surrendered to my daily torture, imagine a subject that has 6 papers, together with their mark scheme so another 6 papers, one year got two exam section( Jun and Nov) so times two, the equation is:

(6 papers + 6 marking scheme) x (averagely each papers got 18.33 pages) x 2 sectiones = 439.92 pages printed everyday

Imagine it? I roughly researched, one subject is equal to a "done" to a printer, since when i done printing the A-level Biology, the printer dies. ^^ Still i have Physics and Chemistry to print, does that mean another breakdown of two printers? My boss just got a new one though, perhaps he will be very angry if another two going to break, well.

So after done printing the papers, i have to rush through all those papers, so that i won't have the problem of my dearest STPM biology teacher (you know who she is) i.e. stuck when students ask a very easy question, duh.


Not suprising enough? After the first week, i got another promotion again, i got my first one-to-one O-level IGCSE Chemistry student, oh well, now we speak of money. With the commision coming in after these, really appreciate my boss to give me such a chance. So basically before this i am bitting through the O-level Chemistry Textbook, since tomorrow is the first day of the lesson. OMG, certainly hope that my student won't fall asleep due to my boring-ness.


Still not that "wow"? My boss enquires me to focus in chemistry for both A-level and O-level, with another subject under my hand, O-level Combined Science; basically its Phy+Bio+Chem. Now we are talking, because that is going to be a home school subject for those private students, even a class of five students is enough to make you laugh. As if reading my mind of money problem, they allow the commision ratio for me is 6 : 4; means i take 60% of the commision, they take 40%, provided i stay to work for them, even though i graduate from my university. Speak of that, they even suggest me to forgo UMS, and take my degree in Open Univerisity Malaysia, which is affordable if i work for them, as they confirmed. Come to think of it, my future road is like already there for me, so now i hold the key to go or no. And i guess i already walk half od the road, hmmm, pretty obvious.

What about the third week? Even more suprise, that i think i will leave it for the next time, since i think my bosses still haven't finished what they want to say, :P

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You, walk into my life, again.
Then, you leave again.

So fast that i couldn't react,
so fast that i thought its just a dream.

However, this time, i pretty sure,
the one in my heart,
certainly is not you.

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Maybe its faith that brings me to where i am now.
She guides me to my future,
even though most of the door is closed,
as in Troy's Scream:
"That day the door is closed, the echoes fill your soul.
They won't say which way to go, just trust your heart."

And i guess i really follow my heart this time.

That night, if its not those stupid people who throw oil bomb,
if its not those rich people plays firework,
if its not army soldiers that use their gunfire,
then i guess,

I saw the first meteor in my entire 21 years, arc the black night's sky, vanishing just right after i saw it. Is Faith telling me that its time to change your life?

忙！

去去去，整个部落都是灰尘，太龌龊了！！！

哈哈，不好意思，最近实在是忙得不可开交，都快累地喘不过气来。

再加上最近家里头发生了些事，闹得不三不四；实在没什么心情想说话，所以都没什么上面书或MSN的。

如果有人却是试着联络我而没辙的话，先说声对不起咯~~~

不管怎么样，确实有很多很多想分享的，不过，暂时是不会上来，因为需要时间平复自己的心态；本人可是物理上兼精神上都累垮啦~~！！！

所以，有事就留言吧！会尽量答复的！


P/S：炼夏：如果我是老板，我真的很想请你帮我，我要打印考试纸，复印考试纸，还要做A级化学（02~09）！！！啊！！！

P/SS：有人对教导Form1~Form5英语有兴趣吗？主要按照新加坡教育制度范围，需有多年经验，啊，当然必须是沙巴KK啦~有兴趣的话留言吧，我会直接与你联络！


再见咯！